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Mick
Starting Member
USA
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 Posted - 01/06/2008 : 22:38:16
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My New Bio:
Was an original member here and checked back every so often and "no board". I couldn't get any info on what happened to the board or Tom? The old chat forums with "Krusty" really helped me. I've back-slidden a few times and have gone through severe DT's a couple more times since the old '97-'99 board. DT's seem to get worse every time. I haven't been a drinker for over 3 years (again). Clean from booze but not addiction, I seemed to have substituted alcohol for a legal opioid (taken by mouth). I crave no alcohol when on this drug but it lead down the same road....Addiction.
Alcohol has always been my "baseline" drug. You all know the routine, the vicious circle of sickness and 7 drinks later I felt normal, 7 shots to just to get out of bed or quit puking....7 shots just to feel good enough to go to the bar and do some real drinking; the repeating circle of empty half gallon bottles of scotch, vodka, and cans of beer, the vomiting, the sickness, we've all been there (some of us many times)! After the extreme pain of DT's once you swear it off for good but eventually you forget and end up on the bottle again. Many here know what I'm talking about.
Although I now find myself addicted to a substance that is 100% legal but have to take 4 times a day and it has a horrible withdrawal (an opioid). It's so true that addiction is a disease...I seem to have latched on to every chemical made at one time or another. I'm either "all" or "none" it seems. My younger self sure had fun with the "all" but now at my age and responsibilities I would prefer the "none". That's why I'm back.
I'm currently tapering my opioId addiction instead of cold turkey for the fact that it would be very dangerous any other way [as in death] (could possibly lose my job also). I could handle losing the job but finding a new life might be tough LOL. One day at a time, and my excel spreadsheet to taper LOL.....it's been tough and my taper won't end until around late April '08 but I'm on course for recovery.
Man, I missed the old chat board....funny how every couple of years I checked to see if it was back. What a surprise tonight, I thank Jesus my Saviour for leading me back.
Happy to be back  I have to work Monday morning so goodnight for now and I'll be back in chat and on the board when I can!!
Sorry for the scattered post. Night all!
Mick
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Edited by - Mick on 01/06/2008 22:41:47 |
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Home Again FINALLY! and Bio:
