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MajestyJo
Average Member
Canada
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 Posted - 08/28/2007 : 15:26:01
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My drug of choice was "more." More of what I'm having, more of what your having, and more of anything that comes my way.
Many people say to me, "Well I wasn't using my drug of choice!" This is a disease of substitution. In recovery, my drug of choice has included many things. i.e. food, work, meetings, service, relationships, computer, shopping, gambling, web sites (10 of my own and 6 of friends) I was told that anything that stood between me and my Higer Power is an addiction. It all leads to the same soul sickness. The substance is but a symptom of my disease, the problem is me. If I don't change, I remain the same person I was when I was using alcohol and drugs to escape my reality.
For me, recovery is about balance. When I get stinking thinking back as a result of an action in today, I need to look at it and check out how it affects my daily living. When I get angry because someone phones and interrupts me when I am on the computer, I need to question why!
I was a bridgeaholic for a long time. I would run away from home to play bridge.
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Lin
Junior Member
USA
352 Posts |
Posted - 11/06/2007 : 04:19:35
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Am I an addict? I would say YES. I have never been addicted to alcohol, drugs, or cigarettes. I do ,however, realize I have been oft4n addicted to the alcoholics in my life. I spent every wakig moment of my day trying to figure them out and "fix them".
I also know there are times I catch myself going overboard on something.
One year I learned to crochet sweater vests. It became an obsession or a challenge to count how many I had made. I made over 300 in one year. It got so bad I got carpel tunnel in my wrist and had to stop.
One year it was mainting shirts. I remember one Thanksgiving 5 day weekend I painted 45 shirts in 5 days.
Another time in my life I was addicted to FREECELL on my computer. I kept records of the games I had played. The document had 3 columns and was about 18 pages long. It even used hyphens for games between like 1-520. SO I played thousands and thousands of FREECELL games.
For me addiction is not knowing when enough is enough. It is wanting this activity more and more. It is putting this activity before normal things like doing laundry or washing the dishes.
Can anyone else relate to this?
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Littlepistol
New Member
USA
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Posted - 11/06/2007 : 12:10:10
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OH I can so relate to this thread! I too have been addicted to the alcoholics in my life. Came from an alcoholic home, married not one but 3 before I figured it all out. At least this one is a recovering alcoholic. I was in recovery myself when I married my RA. Lots of people asked me why I would do that knowing what I knew about alcoholics and knowing that an RA is one one drink away from full blown. Guess it was HP working cause now 11 plus years later we are both still in recovery by the Grace of God ODAT. No one knows what tomorrow brings but for today it is ok.
I've got other additions and they, like Lin's, have changed over the years. For years it was dieting. Stopped dieting and lost over 100 pounds and still working on losing more by staying away from diets. I spent a number of years addicted to meetings, both f2f and online. I've worked thru that but I guess my one hold out is still never seeming to get enough with crafting. Ofcourse I was told early in my recovery that any one in any recovery has to find something to replace the void left by their individual recovery. It is now my crafts. I can't say I made 300 vests in one year but I almost always have several things going at once. But they don't interfer (maybe Split has a different opinion here) in my daily life.
So yes LIN I do relate. Good topic.
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LET GO LET GOD
As children bring their broken toys with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God, because He was my friend.
I hung around and tried to help, with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back and cried, "How can you be so slow?"
"My child," He said,
"What could I do? You never did let go." |
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